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  John studied how Plato had been more pragmatic than Socrates and was more ready to accept the reality of the material world. Plato also had asked which is better, a bad democracy or a country ruled by a tyrant? He concluded, that it is better to be ruled by a bad tyrant, than be in a bad democracy (since then all the people would be responsible for the bad actions, rather than one individual, committing many bad deeds).

  Both Socrates and Plato postulated that the material world as it seems to us is not the real world, but only an image, or copy of the real world. Physical objects and physical events are "shadows" of their ideal or perfect forms. By this time John felt this was getting a bit heavy and perhaps best left for philosophy students to contemplate.

  John was not as interested in the third member of the trio, Plato’s student Aristotle. While he found Aristotle to be a great student of logic and to have had a tremendous knowledge of the natural sciences, he felt his attitude towards women was misogynistic and condescending and therefore clouded some of Aristotle’s findings. He felt Aristotle was more like the old John.

  On concluding his study of these great philosophers John asked himself a fundamental question, that he had never thought about in the past:

  “What is the difference between knowledge and wisdom?” Certainly Aristotle had a lot of knowledge but did he have wisdom? After thinking about it John decided that,

  “Wisdom is knowledge about the Good, or right relations, between all that exists”.

  This was more in line with Socrates and Plato.

  After his study of the great philosophers, John went on to study the great religions of the world, and like Alice’s mother Jane, was particularly drawn towards Buddhism, with its common sense approach and lack of miracles to believe in and like Socrates the right to question everything rather than just blindly believe. Then on to ancient civilizations. He became particularly fascinated with ancient Egypt and how the pharaohs set themselves up as gods, to control the people. He also looked at some of the great tyrants of history including, Hitler, Stalin and even Napoleon.

  For the first time John was thinking about life and what is important and what is not. He was realizing, that in the past he had been so much into material possessions, he had never had the time to think about life and what it was all about. He was now giving himself the education he had denied himself in the past, due to his desire to get ahead in the business world.

  Mostly, he read either in the breakfast room or on the front veranda. While he had noticed Bill drive in and out of his home a few times, there had been no sign of Alice or Susie. Claire seemed to be spending her time with the girl next door, rather than Susie. Come to think of it, he saw very little of his own kids. Every time he tried to talk to them, they made excuses to get away from him. Evidently Audry had told them to stay away from him as much as possible, due to his “condition”.

  Audry seemed to be thriving in her role as his carer and controller of the household. She was in charge and reveling in it. Whereas in the past, she had been subservient to him, now she was in charge of everything. Each day, John, through his reading and weekly sessions with Dr Rush, was becoming less and less like George, while Audry was becoming more and more like her father. They were drifting further and further apart. Theirs was now a marriage in name only.

  John often thought about Alice and was now beginning to realize how their affair had totally changed him. He could see how Alice was a free spirit, while he had been a slave to the business world and acquisition of material possessions. He no longer cared about having a bigger home, with a tennis court, or that the garden and house were not perfect. Although looking at it, Audry was still keeping everything in perfect order.

  He no longer needed to show off to other people. Anyhow, Audry was keeping everyone away. Not even George had visited. In fact he saw more of the local librarian and Dr Rush, than anyone else. He had noticed Dr Rush now seemed to have a bounce in her step and was continuing to wear her hair down and her contact lenses. He also noticed she was wearing much smarter clothes and often wore a lovely gold necklace. When he had asked her about it, she said her boyfriend had given it to her.

  The sessions with Dr Rush were becoming briefer and he was finding his homework less and less confronting as he worked through the major issues in his life.

  His sex life with Audry was now non-existent, but she didn’t seem to mind. He was finding her less and less attractive anyway; the more she assumed power over the household.

  The days were drifting by and apart from Audry being in charge, he was taking everything more casually. He was finally finding some inner peace.

  Chapter 22 Graham Again

  Late one afternoon the phone rang. Audry answered and reluctantly passed it over to John. It was Graham. Audry knew Graham and his wife from way back in their private school days, but had not had much to do with them in recent years. Little did she know that this was largely due to Graham’s relationship with John and not wanting to mix his penthouse friends with his wife’s establishment friends.

  Although George and Audry had totally taken over the real estate business, she knew nothing of the property amalgamation deal John and Graham had been working on together. John had kept this totally separate from the other real estate business.

  Graham was in high spirits,

  “John you little beauty. We’ve killed it you old son of a bitch. While some of us have been in hospital, others like me have been working. We got an offer today for $10 million. What do you say to that old boy?”

  “What about the relatives waiting for the probate and the old man with the knife sharpening business, who didn’t want to move?” inquired John.

  “All done old son. The probate came through weeks ago, just like you said and the relatives couldn’t wait to sell. With the other one, the old knife sharpener’s daughter got him to sign all the papers to move. So it’s all done. We have to celebrate you old son of a gun.”

  “Well I don’t know,” said John. He really wasn’t in the mood for one of Graham’s parties especially after the last time when Graham had the fight with his mistress.

  “No we have to celebrate. Just the two of us. I won’t take no for an answer. I’m at the penthouse. Get your arse over here pronto.” It was almost a demand.

  “What about Francis, won’t she be there,” John asked, still uncertain.

  “No, she’s gone. We split after that party when she poured the beer over me. It will just be the two of us. So get here pronto.”

  “Well I guess so,” said John, still reluctant.

  What with the hospital and sitting around at home reading books, he hadn’t been out for a long time. It would be nice to get away from Audry for a while.

  “OK, I’ll see you shortly.”

  As soon as John got off the phone Audry was at him,

  “What was that all about John?” she demanded.

  “Oh nothing,” he replied. This was one part of his business dealings he was not going to let Audry and her father get their hands on.

  “Graham has just sold some land he was developing and wants to have a drink with me to celebrate.”

  “I didn’t know you still kept in touch with him,” said Audry quite suspiciously.

  “I saw him just before I went into hospital, he told me about what he was doing then,” parried John. “So now he wants to celebrate with me.”

  This seemed to satisfy Audry,

  “Well he mustn’t have got any sense out of you then. You were out of your tree before you went into that nut house. See that you’re not too late. You are still recovering.”

  With that Audry left the room.

  John went upstairs and got dressed. It was a while since he had worn his casual clothes and it felt good to be nicely dressed again. For the past few months he had been wearing jeans and a t-shirt every day. He looked at himself in the mirror. Not bad he though, he had lost a few pounds during his ordeal and looked all the better for it.

  “Can I have th
e keys to the car Audry?” He had not called her Hon, since he came home from hospital.

  “You can take my Mazda, John,” she said handing him the keys.

  “Just drive carefully, we don’t need any more trouble thanks to you.”

  “No trouble,” muttered John, as he headed for the garage.

  By the time he got to the penthouse it was getting dark. Graham greeted him at the door with a glass of Moet in hand.

  “John I’ve got to give it to you. You set that deal up perfectly. It all came together even when you were in hospital. I see a big future for us. Come in and sit down. The world is your oyster tonight.”

  Graham had obviously had a few before John arrived. He went on,

  “So tell me old son, what happened. I heard you had whiplash but Sunnydale is a psyc hospital isn’t it?”

  “You wouldn’t want to know Graham. Lets just leave it at that,’” said John insistently.

  “OK, old boy anything you say.” Graham paused, “So what have you been up to?”

  “Not much, just staying home and reading.”

  “God, old boy, that's not the John I know. Its about time you had some excitement in your life.”

  Graham filled his glass and went on,

  “John, you and I are great together. You have the gift of the gab I haven’t got and I have the access to finance, you haven’t got. It’s a marriage made in heaven. We are going to go places!!!”

  John had not had any alcohol to drink for a long time and the champagne was quickly going to his head. Graham kept rattling on about how wonderful John was. It felt good to be getting some appreciation and positive encouragement for once, rather than Audry telling him he was an embarrassment to the family.

  John must have had about four glasses of Moet and was feeling very light headed when the door intercom went. Graham answered it. There was Gail.

  “Hello John,” said Gail, giving him a very friendly hug and kiss on the lips, as if he were a long lost friend.

  John studied her closely. He had not taken a lot of notice of her when she had been with her mate Cindy at the last After Party, Looking closely; she was about 25, tall, blonde and very pretty. Yes quite a stunner thought John and full of life. Quite an extrovert. I can see what Graham sees in her.

  The three of them sat down together. Gail was full of beans. She seemed to know all about the property deal and was very much on the ball.

  More champagne and lots of laughing and joking followed. For the first time in months John was feeling relaxed and happy. Gail was turning out to be the life of the party.

  She put some music on and showed them how she danced in a recent disco commercial she had been making. She was very sexy and full of fun. She was a good dancer and really knew how to move her body. John found her dancing to be very seductive as she sidled up to both of them.

  John didn’t know quite how it happened but eventually the three of them found themselves naked and in the spa together. Gail was kissing Graham while John sipped his champagne and watched. Next Gail turned towards John,

  “Come here John,” she said. “We don’t want to leave you out.”

  With that she reached over, pulled him towards her and started to kiss him passionately. Her lips were soft and her body toned and fit. Meanwhile Graham watched them as he sipped his champagne. The last person John had kissed like that was Alice, but after she had told him off at the wharf that day, he had given up all hope of ever seeing her again. He didn’t feel the same way about Gail, but she was young, beautiful, warm and passionate and by now the champagne had really started to kick in. Gail moved so that she was now straddling over him and really getting excited.

  As they kissed Graham came up behind her and started to kiss Gail on the back of the neck. She turned and responded to him by kissing him back. She was getting really turned on about having two men together, both after her. As she kissed Graham she kept stroking John’s manhood, which had already risen to the occasion. Then she turned back to kissing John, while Graham entered her from behind. She was kissing and stroking John up and down, while Graham was right inside her from behind.

  John had never felt false boobs before but even though he knew they were not real, they felt surprisingly good and Gail was certainly enjoying it. She had lovely erect nipples was moving up and down in rhythm with Graham as she stroked John, while in return he sucked her ample breasts.

  Next she turned, sat on John’s lap and put him inside her while Graham in turn licked her breasts and kissed her, as she now stroked him.

  This went on and on with Gail alternating between the two of them. The spa was warm and Gail was really enjoying all the attention of two erect males and was wildly turned on. While Graham was taking her from behind and Gail was stroking him, John could take it no longer and came. This seemed to excite the other two and Graham and Gail next came together.

  Wow what a night. All three sat back and sipped their champagne, completely satisfied. Gail sat between them with a hand on each of their legs as they took it in turn to put their champagne glasses to her lips. She kept putting her head on one shoulder then the other.

  However John could not help comparing what had just happened to his love making with Alice. Yes he had not had sex for a long time and it was very satisfying and he actually liked Gail a lot. But making love with Alice had been different. It had a spiritual quality to it he had never experienced before. With Graham and Gail it was basically getting sexual relief, and while it was warm and satisfying, it did not have any deep and lasting meaning. It was a bit like it had been with his two real estate mates after the Melbourne Cup many years ago.

  On the other hand, he had to get Alice out of his head. Her words kept coming back to him “I never want to see you again. Get out of my fucking life.” So he just sat there in the spa, appreciating Gail and Graham for the time being.

  Chapter 23 Home

  Friday afternoon was wearing on. With his stay in hospital and his “home recovery,” John was thinking maybe he should go back to work next week. But the thought did not please him.

  He was more relaxed than he could remember in years and was starting to live more and more in the moment. He was sitting on the front veranda and looking at the grass. Not a sign of the damage he had inflicted on it in his violent rage. He felt totally different now than back then. How could he have been so off his head? He could even take in the smells of the garden, with the last of the blossoms now falling from the fruit tree in the side garden. The gum tree had deposited its usual load of leaves on the grass, but now rather than messing up his lawn he could see they were all different shades of green and orange. They actually gave the grass some character.

  Just then his peace was broken, as Audry came out and announced,

  “Don’t forget we are going to a barbecue next door tomorrow night. You had better be on your best behaviour John. If anyone asks you, remember you had whiplash.”

  “Yeah sure, who will be there?” John asked innocently. Audry listed a whole lot of neighbours names, but didn’t mention Bill and Alice.

  “What about Bill and Alice?” he asked.

  “I’m not sure about Bill, but Alice certainly won’t be coming.”

  “Why’s that?”

  “You haven't heard have you John. Alice has left him. It happened while you were in the hospital. Serves him right for marrying that tart in the first place. You saw the way she was dressed when she came to our place for dinner that night.“

  I certainly did, thought John with a warm feeling going through his mind, as Audry continued.

  “I’ve also told Claire I don’t want that Susie over here any more. She’s becoming more and more like her mother every day.”

  You bitch, thought John. It was now clear why he hadn’t seen Susie around.

  He had been taken by surprise and needed to think a bit.

  “I’m just going for a walk down the road,” he said in confusion.

  “Don’t be long Hon.” She was still
calling him Hon after all they had been through. He sort of cringed.

  Audry continued, “I want to go down to the supermarket to get a few things and pick up the dry cleaning before they close.”

  “OK, “ called out John, “I won’t be long.”

  He turned out of the gate and was soon walking past nosy Jean’s place. She wasn’t in the garden today. Just as well he thought, as he suddenly re-called saying “Boo” to her, in his drunken rage that night. He paused for a moment. She actually had her garden looking very nice. It was a free flowing garden, not at all over controlled like his perfect garden. He noticed how beautiful her roses were. There were a whole lot of bees buzzing around them doing their business.